Fallency For:resistance in armageddon

2007-10-21T04:45:00.000-07:00

I feel like sometimes nothing is worth it. How many times have I fall and rip myself apart? alot I guess. How many tears have I cried? till the extend that tears don't fall anymore. How many cuts I had? Afew the rest of the scars heal up,only those significant few remain. How many times I walk alone trying to feel comfort? alot,everyday. sometimes everything feel damn fucked up. I feel I'm so goddamn lousy, I feel I'm not worth it to anyone. BUT what the hell,I'm not the only sad,desolated human being. I may choose like falling down, I know I am damn weak,but each time theres a reason not too,I know my reason at the moment. and what the hell,I know I'm not that bad for anyone, I have my good and bad. I just don't understand why no one comes and notice me and like me... Everything is not perfect,I am just trying, and if I'm lucky something good will happen.

You know what they call this self empathy. haha. Man and I'm good at it. This may be my last post,who the hell cares bout me and what and I have to say anyway. Its like perfect suicide, killing yourself trying to display your death scene with your guts at the doorknob and your blood painting the walls bloody red, and no one even noticing a single thing. Perfect suicide,when I die I rather no one knows then no one can comes to my feneral. That wouldn't even be call perfect suicide,no one even know about the suicide.

Everything falls one by one,sometimes they take pairs. We are living in an imperfect world,but we got to see every single fall theres a rise. Let this one be a great rise rather than a massive fall.

2007-08-27T06:24:00.000-07:00

Fallen angel

I am so tired...didn't really know that someonelike him could like her. haha. I am falling,my faith is on a tight rope,but I know God will come and knock some sense into me. nothing much to talk about. Thats how I feel. and yar my winning 11 season so far is 8 wins 1 draw 0 lost, and my best goal scorer is Nakamura and Walcott,I'm using Arsenal. Oh ya, and finally my Portuguese brother is playing properly,NANI. I am proud that I have Portuguese heritage.

2007-08-04T09:11:00.000-07:00

I do not know

But,every single girl I fall for since my ex, is either one of three things... first, they are not interested. secondly, they consider me as a friend, and lastly, they are already attached. Like kinda sad about it,but don't really think bout it so much already. I think I am trying to smile more. Trying! I just say this ah,if I ever told the girl I really had feelings for... I think she will ignore me. wahaha. SO I AM trying to smile =)

MY week summerised

on monday, I can't remember what I did on monday. I am suffering from memory lost.

on tuesday,Biggest thing was the RP opening. Chiron got cheated by those upstairs people,then we thought got cheer, then in the end all get cheated... Evil. Hang out with the main characters of Sheraton,and some sub characters, and four extra characters. haha. Anyway, I am the main character, and I am super imbar. my main female character ah,hmm, how to say...I don't know who it is,or I do know but I just don't want say.

on wednesday,walk all over town helping Wan look for a teddy bear. Aimless and in the end pointless.

on thursday,hmm, science module,actually was quite okay. Play badminton,lucky to see someone there.

on friday,Stupid Fucked up maths. With that stupid old hag,Anyhow say things... I wasn't doing anything on my computer lahzzz... I so nice one.

on sat, hmm,nothing much actually,drank and ate a huge dinner.

anyway, my life like nothing good happens much... or interesting.

HERE SOMETHING TO READ
GOT ALOT OF MEANING!!!.

You'll sit alone forever
If you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for?
I'm here I'm now I'm ready
Holding on tight
Don't give away the end
The one thing that stays mine

I won't always love what I'll never have
I won't always live in my regrets

2007-07-29T00:09:00.000-07:00

This is for saturday,and my post timing and dates are wrong.

Today I work up kinda in a happy mood. Have not been emo for some time. Good right? Anyway,woke up late and went to watch my friend's band perform. His band name is Airtime and their drummer seriously sucks,I mean I drum better. haha. Actually the drummer is my friend so I give chance.

haha. bore-ed the rest of the day. Kinda happy in the night too.haha. Guess some of your know why.

2007-07-26T20:45:00.000-07:00

I just don't like waiting,but I am waiting...

I really quite impatient,been waiting to see if I don't message,will she message me back...No luck so far,now its like 11.53am,and no luck so far. I think I suck. I want to talk to her,but can't do anything much. Falling for her,but I think I should widen my options,but I feel I am not sincere to her if I ever do that.
And now,its so boring...stupid maths...

somewhere over the rainbow lyrics

Somewhere over the rainbow, way up high
There's a land that I heard of once in a lullaby
Somewhere over the rainbow, skies are blue
And the dreams that you dare to dream really do come true!

Someday I'll wish upon a star
and wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where troubles melt like lemon drops
Away above the chimney tops, that's where you'll find me!

Somewhere over the rainbow, bluebirds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow, why then oh why can't I?

( Someday I'll wish upon a star
and wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where troubles melt like lemon drops
Away above the chimney tops, that's where you'll find me! )

Somewhere over the rainbow, bluebirds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow, why then oh why can't I?
If happy little bluebirds fly, beyond the rainbow
Why oh why can't I!

2007-07-26T08:18:00.000-07:00

Its brand new for me

I like this girl,but she likes someone else. Am i good enough for her. I hope I am. Thats all I want to know. Cause I want to be the one she can hold on to... in everything.good and bad,happy and sad.

Today, I want to start blogging properly. My blog is not difficult to read,its just you need imagination. haha. Anyway,didn't go to school today. Was too tired,couldn't sleep well last night,cause I was emo-ing. Then spend time finding a new blogskin. Found one,this one. haha. Don't know why,but seem to like this song all of the sudden. Maybe this song is about, dreaming. Basically, what I do everyday is that. haha. My latest dream, trying to get her.
Anyway,went to school to do the stupid SAS cheer. Kinda piss off,cause I waited for the rest of the chiron members for like half an hour,at a damn ulu place. Man, and it piss me off that some events IG,keep complaining. Like Little girls. haha. Can't stand.
And I like always wait for her to message, sometimes so long, but nevermind,guess she is busy with her own matters. Anyway,use to liked a girl,that only message me,once before she sleeps. haha. so this girl is so much better. Kinda falling for her.

freedom my fallen...I'm gonna free myself

2007-07-20T09:32:00.000-07:00

I'M WASTING MY TIME

I wish there was a happy ending,but I have a ending,I have to accept it. I need to learn be happy about it. Its like my life is empty,once I was filled near to the brim,but now I just hope to be filled again. I don't want her back,I can't,I won't. I do not love her anymore,I don't want to love her anymore,I don't need to love her anymore. I really don't have to. I choosed now at this point,no other things matter. I have choosen my path, my life is a chess game with everything. My life has been so fucked up before I choose,but I don't want to have a fucked up life forever. I am true and true different on my own. This is what I am accepting now,but I am always hoping I can find someone. But maybe she will come on later. Now its just a one man show. waiting for it to be a one man and one women love story. I am randomly lost.

if you can see me,my fallen,you will know why. you will know the end,and why I am there.

2007-07-15T06:10:00.000-07:00

Queer! I made it this far

I have no power,I have failed.

Is it just me or was my life meant to be this way.I tried and it don't seem good enough. I am just trying to wear my hood,and cover myself away. I wanna just cover myself away from everyone,its like they won't miss me. Its good enough for me if I could live alone in Siberia. Maybe I can last another day. Just see my dreary legs stumble on. Further and further I go till you only see me as a shadow across the horizon,and then I fade.

I just came to tell you. Sweet and silent,long and lost. Goodbye my fallen.

2007-07-10T06:51:00.000-07:00

Nothing last,if it did.Sorrow wouldn't be my guardian

I lay on my bed,but my swollen eyes are just watery.
If only yesterday could have been today. The moment her nick pop up,I was just so numb.In my mind I just taught was it possible,am I going die soon or something that you god grant my wish. Its just my heart skip and jump, then i click the msn pop up and saw her email add.
Argh!!!But it ended so fast. 9 months,then last then a solid 10 mins of talk.
Life is such a bad thing,I mean happiness then sadness.
Even today was happy,but then realise its nothing much and I go back sad again.

2007-07-08T23:00:00.000-07:00

Now I'm feeling so much better

Talk to her finally after so long. I think I would be less emo now. Its finally the time to,maybe now it would be so much better. I need to set myself free,my wings are all restless. My weary search may be over. Needed this for so long, I feel like crying lor. So happy. Yet so damn sad.

2007-07-08T18:25:00.000-07:00

I feel that the new pokeballs don't work that well

My pokeball sucks,I brought new ones.But WTH!!!! Can't pokeballs work properly. So now I want to buy ultraballs now.Hmm,I also brought death note at the $2 shop,but not working. Never buy things that cost $2 when they are suppose to cost $24.50. ERRRR!!! Then my Squall Leonheart ah,not even fighting properly.

So I want to take black and make it that

Here is my beating heart on my left hand,here is the dagger to stab my heart. I offer it to you,my fallen. Take it and stab it to your hearts content. Just remember I will come back heartless,no feelings,no pain. Its my destiny,its how it is suppose. I want go hide at a corner. Look at me,I want to have purple hair the covers the right side of my face.Like that guy in the pic.But he is a nobody and I seem to be one too,so ya I'm finding my somebody.To be real again.

2007-07-08T06:38:00.000-07:00

If I die now...what I wish for...

Really its only a few things
1. To play the playstation 3 once
2.To see my homeland
3.To save someone's life
4.To let my family know I love them
5.Buy life insurance for myself,then my family can get the money(they need it)
6.Lastly,I just want her to know that I'm still that stupid fool that is in love with her,maybe the feeling is no more the same,but its still love.I think....

Ya,better buy the life insurance soon..

2007-07-08T05:50:00.000-07:00

The world is dying,and so am I

The inconvenient truth is the world is on the verge of being a suana. How? what can we do,do simply things that we learn since primary school. SAVE THE WORLD,if not the future generation suffers.

Another inconvenient truth,I'm dying slowly. HAHA. My emo-ness is killing me,how am I to live long,my sorrow will take me someday. Its the truth,hope the planet goes on living when I die,cause the world can be save,I don't think I can. Time to say goodbye.

But who the hell cares if I fade

Don't worry I still have my new pokeballs.I will die with new balls in my hands. I have a new lie to tell,My life is a happy thing. haha. Use to be many years ago,but I lost myself along the way. I don't really know now.Love can fade away and kill you. But I'm just so god damn emo and stupid.ARGH!!!!!!!

My fallen,I miss you

2007-07-07T07:11:00.000-07:00

The little things

I know that love is many things,great and terrible. Its a double-edged sword,but without it,its something that i guess could never do.

What if you like someone,but you're just scared. A feeling that you never felt for so long. why am I scared? I wanna know. Emo boy in a world of colours and these type of things sucks big time.

And another thing,if you are online and someone talks to you and you never reply cause lets say you are busy doing stuff or you are at canteen eating,then when you reply they go offline,and they don't read your reply. Then they got all childish saying that you don't reply their message. I mean sometimes you talk to that person they never even reply and I did it once and wanna complain.WAR!!!!!

I got Megatron,who the hell you got huh??? I also got optimus prime,and a lambo transformer ok... And I have new pokeballs,brought it at 7-11. Then I got the emo army k.wahaha.

please refrain from being too cautious,liking someone could lead to the greatest love your pitiful life could have since you know it.Seriously! Beauty is not skin deep,you should know this.

I have to admit I'm getting bored,lonely,emo.

2007-07-06T09:08:00.000-07:00

In the little thing called a pokeball!

Today I realise what i've been missing.Pokeballs!!! Yes. Pokeballs. I realise that without getting new pokeballs,I have old pokeballs.And with old pokeballs,its efficiency drops. You know why Pikachu hates being in Ash's pokeball? cause he had old pokeballs,given by that sleezy professor oak,man that guy is weird.Is he opening his eyes or not? Yes pokeballs are important as the pokemon themselves,remember there are 493 pokemon to catch now,use ur balls well!

In something called 300

Spartans! HAWOO!!!! YES THATS ALL YOU PERSIANS.IF YOU WANT A FIGHT WE HAVE NEW POKEBALLS,DO YOU HAVE THE BALLS TO MATCH UP WITH THAT!!!! WAHAHA! NO YOUR DON'T,ALL YOU HAVE A PUSSIES!!! THOSE PERSIAN CATS OF YOURS CAN'T WIN OUR MEOWTH!

SO,prepare for trouble,make it 300,to protect the world from devastation, to unite all people within our nation,to denounce the evil of cats and balls,to extend our balls to the stars above, spartans and leonidas, TEAM 300! BLAST OFF AT THE SPEED OF LIGHT! SURENDER NOW OR PREPARE TO FIGHT! MEOWTHH THATS RIGHT!!! HAWOOO!! HAWOO!!!

2007-07-06T08:09:00.000-07:00

It had something to do with the rainbow

It all has to end somewhere,deep in my heart. This is what I know,I can't just hold to fading part of my life. All I wish was,something that can never happen.

I dunno really what to do now,I dont even know if i should stop or move,run or hide.I just feel empty and wanting.Wanting for someone to give me directions. My eyes are close once in awhile,with outstretch arms,waiting for her hand to grab my hand. Let her voice just gently comfort me.But all are just empty dreams that don't mean much anymore,its significance is fading slowly but surely,and when it ends, I will be tenfold more lost then I am now.

It all begin with something that remain in my heart till now, 3 babies. Then it had to end.

I am so stupid. Just wish my Namani comes along,she will make me feel like a somebody even though I am a nobody.(Its kingdom hearts,although they are nobodies,they are just hollow living shells,their love made each other feel like a real human,with feelings and all) When she comes I hope I dun stupidly make a dumb mistake and let her go. I know she is waiting for me,and I know I've been counting stars to find her,but counting stars is not finding her,going out there to the world is. And I know she will be beautiful,cause beauty was never skin deep.

Why the rainbow? Its the sign of new hope. Its something that makes you feel happy when you look at it. A beautiful promise from GOD(Noah's ark,the earth flood for 40 days and nights,and when the water level resided,a rainbow was the sign that GOD promise Noah that the world will never flood again).Its just like the stars at night,but the stars shows us that there is light even in a world full of darkness.And don't diss GOD,he is my lord and redeemer,he is my king! Although I doubt him at times,I always return to his love.If only I could return to hers.So it something to do with the rainbow,show me all the colours,show me all the light.

You're not alone,there is more to this,you can make it out,you will live to tell.Let it play pretty for you.

2007-05-02T07:02:00.000-07:00

we soak and bask in the sun and drench in the rain
let me take your hand,hold it tightly don't let go
and lets take turns running around
just write another song that makes me smile
and feel like a child again
where I just sit by myself
holding a toy sword and gun
thinking I'm saving the world
where I was the knight,the prince and the warrior
write me another song to remember me
that sometimes life is a dream
and I have another keychain

today I'm scared of the weird person from my class,too traumatise to say more.very tired and sick.hope manchester wins today,yay! liverpool win chelsea,haha so happy.now its my portuguese brother to win it for man u,and treble will come to man u.but next year will be arsenal turn.haah.

ENDLESS RAIN by X-japan
I'm walking in the rain
yuku ate mo naku kizutsuita karada nurashi
karamitsuku koori no zawameki
koroshi tsuzukete samayou itsu made mo
Until I can forget your love
nemuri wa mayaku tohou ni kureta
kokoro o shizuka ni tokasu
mai agaru ai o odorasete
furueru karada o kioku no bara ni tsutsumu
I keep my love for you to myself
* Endless rain, fall on my heart kokoro no kizu ni
Let me forget all of the hate, all of the sadness
Days of joy, days of sadness slowly pass me by
As I try to hold you, you are vanishing before me
You're just an illusion
When I'm awaken, my tears have dried in the sand of sleep
I'm a rose blooming in the desert
It's a dream, I'm in love with you
madoromi dakishimete
* repeat
I awake from my dream
I can't find my way without you
The dream is over
koe ni naranai kotoba o kurikaeshite mo
takasugiru hai iro no kabe wasugi satta hi no
omoi o yume ni utsusu
Until I can forget you love
* repeat
Endless rain, let me stay
evermore in your heart
Let my heart take in your tears, take in your memories
* repeat

2007-04-27T21:38:00.000-07:00

Maybe fate is not here,maybe love has left.
but I'm still here with a rose
so I still believe
Fate can be challenge,stars can be change
all we need is faith
all we do is just believe

2007-04-27T07:45:00.001-07:00

how much i wish to know,how you feel about me.
i wonder if you know,that i'm running around in circles
waiting to know.
what if i tell you something,will you stumble away?
what if you faint when you hear it,i'll carry you up
maybe you can see,maybe you know,i don't know
but I'm like tripping on my own feet over you
hope you know it,cause I'm trying to show it
that maybe I have fallen,am falling,and will fall
for you.

2007-04-25T00:37:00.000-07:00

I just saw an incredibly awesome blog! Its like jaw-droppin. I mean what the hell so freaking rich, can buy stuff online. I only get the free stuff. sorry emo now. I mean I don't have self confidence,but this is like extremely the opposite lor, Bite fingernail and commit suicide,I mean what!. Argh!!!

NOW!!! to emo-ing. How would I know what to do when I have nothing to do correctly done.So how can I do it right,when all I know is not much. Tonight as I watch the stars and realise I'm just a fragment of a hopeless cause.Why do the things I do,why cry,why study,and why love,but its maybe because of you that make this all worth while.

As tears reside,the remnants of our last cause fades.A day,one day,and we will end this.men,god awaits us in paradise,we fight for love,for freedom,for our people. Lets us end this in glory,ride,ride,RIDE! To hell we ride,and heaven will shall arrive!

2007-04-13T09:31:00.000-07:00

Wa! I emo now.Told her that I like her,haha. Then dunno what to do,come back home I listen to saosin-bury your head,seven years,i can tell,lost symphony and play pretty for babies.Ya I love saosin,seriously they are the one the best emo bands I know.haha.*the 'haha' is emo laughter,which goes more like ahhahahaha sob sob sob why does happiness hurt*.ya!NO MORE yaya papaya,haha.

RP swimming pool good,so nice to swim in it in full clothes, wanna join swim club.haha.So everyone emo at the swim club with me.easier to drown.haha.

Orientation was nice,SAS 18 a.k.a fullerton(sorry if I spell wrongly) was a fun group to be in.The games was fun and SAS rock cause we got clubbing.

Ok tired ah,a long day...a emo day and the crying started.

2007-04-10T09:46:00.000-07:00

"I Can Tell"-saosin. Betray.The Avalon is always beside me.And I'm following it home Where is my home.Orion glows.And his eyes open up I once believed that I would set you in line If only I had the strength you'd be completely accepting something else.If you keep asking me I'll melt away in the summer air It won't hurt half as much and I'll beg for you to stop it now.If you keep asking me I'll melt away in the summer air.It won't hurt half as much and I'll beg for you just tell me something.The fluid through the alpha waves and power cables everywhere Exercising self-control The child calls And he lies open I would believe if only I'd been thinking at all If only I had the strength you'd be completely accepting something else.If you keep asking me I'll melt away in the summer air It won't hurt half as much and I'll beg for you to stop it now.If you keep asking me I'll melt away in the summer air.It won't hurt half as much and I'll beg for you just tell me something.If you keep asking me (keep asking me) keep asking me.If only I had the strength you'd be completely accepting something else.If you keep asking me I'll melt away in the summer air It won't hurt half as much and I'll beg for you to stop it now.If you keep asking me I'll melt away in the summer air.It won't hurt half as much and I'll beg for you just tell me something.You swore Out like my life.You cried So I'm engaged to smile.

saosin rocks! Emo boys like me like them.haha!
wa! so sad ah today. time for depression hour!!!!!I guess she will know I like her leh.like everybody can tell.-_-' hahaha.tired ah.rp has weird class name too,w26l or m,sounds like weapon name.rifle i guess.hope we sheraton will meet up once in awhile. ;p

2007-04-08T05:08:00.000-07:00

hopeless lonely emo boy.hurra!! let us run into the swamps.lalalalalalalala!!!!!!

sorry I mad sia.must be the prospect of rp having a swimming pool,hope you catch my drift. ;p
haha.really who wouldn't want a swimming pool.

haha!anyway happy easter! victory on the cross,is the greatest victory in history.Godlike victory.haha!
Happy resurrection day,Jesus!

2007-04-07T12:50:00.000-07:00

haha.sorry never blog so long.I think my blog is dead.sadness to extreme.But who the f*ck cares aite? When your an emo loser.haha!Been busy slacking with my ps2.WA!!! shit,no money to buy the bloody ps3.Have to wait for the wedding bells,postponed marriage sucks big time,I mean I've be waiting forever leh.

Wa! miss schooling in m.i. la.All the fun and xiao people there(dedicated to Yixun,especially the xiao part,and stop using map hack).Really miss 06S2.Remember the football hitting the glass and dropping it on the floor beside the cleaner.HAHA!Then playing fisbie in the hall after school and during breaks.Ya!and James' gay stuff.HAha!even miss nick,haha.miss also small tim,amirah,sharifa,chun leng,linus,wei chong and the rest of you people.(tired to name all ah,don't come find me if your name not inside,especially nick,your name inside liao)

Sorry all the sudden I blog so easy to understand lor,got someone request one.Haha!BUT not much people read my blog cause I'm an emo loser.haha!so i don't really care.

anyway rp is ok ah,I mean I kinda wish I was in np(nearer to m.i. and also quite a number of my friends there,including my ex.haha!Dunno why she is included ah,but she is one of the most important person in my life,you know looking back,yup!).anyway,SAS camp was painful for the sleeping part,yeah!itching hard uncomfortable carpet was the way to go.Yeah! and so was excellent planning and wonderful food.Power to the SAS camp coordinators!haha!All my group members were nice people,sheraton 3.(last time I was in orion 3.haha!must be a sign sia!born in march 6 too,3 multiples!!!)Erm,the rest of sheraton had nice people too,also I have a crush on someone in sheraton(won't tell which one ah,after the person read this might know),Won't tell your who too unless you ask!(really hope she likes me,if not i'll cry like an emo baby)anyway all of it was fun,but moshing was too short,ghost were too dark and slime was made of green apple dye(found the dye bottle on the floor).

Damn,then acted as a Roman soldier torturing Jesus on Good friday.So sad right?I act as the bad one.haha!Because of me he was nailed to the cross.Man I feel so evil.maybe I post the vid on youtube soon la.

Before I go must leave with a grand ending,to keep my blog alive or most probably ressurrect it from the dead,its easter anyway.

"Sons of Gondor of Rohan,my brothers,I see in your eyes the same fear that would take the heart of me.A day may come when the courage of men fails, when we forsake our friends and break all bonds of fellowship, but it is not this day.An hour of woes and shattered shields, when the age of men comes crashing down! But it is not this day!This day we fight!By all that you hold dear on this good Earth, I bid you stand, Men of the West!"Aragorn
one of the most beautiful battle speech ever,from one of the greatest movie ever.

2006-12-01T10:38:00.000-08:00

For someone who is just so hard to get, but i like so much.

I don't want it to be this way
you're just like an angel
and it seems so hard to ever reach you
you're like in a much higher place then I am
but sometimes the things we can never ever get
is what we love to have the most
though a short time was our meeting
I find that being with you is just like heaven
I pray that at least you feel a small bit the same
don't even know if fate allows me to be with you
I want to challenge it
don't even know if you like me
I dream that you do

uder the stars,i sit,wondering and thinking
why did I fell or you in such a short time
but I find you worth it all this while
I don't want to lose someone I really like

really having faith that she messages me soon

2006-11-29T08:52:00.000-08:00

NEWS FLASH

I found a girl that i really like,just hoping she likes me.

end of news

2006-11-27T05:17:00.000-08:00

END OF A REASON
COLDNESS,OH BEHOLD
WHAT A THING TO CHERISH
REASONS ERUPTED FROM QUESTIONS
CONFUSION AMONG THE GREAT
BUT WAS THERE A REASON
TO ALL OUR FEARS
NONE TO OUR HEART'S KNOWLEDGE
AND COLDNESS BEYOND MEANS AND BORDERS
NO ANSWERS IN THE ABYSS
WITH A MIGHTY HAMMER
REASONS WERE CRUSHED
AND FADED WHERE MOURNERS GOES
DASH OF THE LIVING,FALLEN AND DEAD
THREE TIMES READY FOR A FALLEN WAY
THE SHADOWS CREEP AND IT BEGINS
THE END OF REASON
THE START OF DESOLATION
THE END OF LOGIC
THE START OF ARMEGEDDON

2006-11-15T06:51:00.000-08:00

THE GREATEST THING IN MY LIFE IS COMING

THE SOMEONE WHO HAS BEEN THERE FOR ME
I have found my next wife,my divorce with playstation 2 is coming soon.The last time I'll use her will be when GOD of War 2 comes out.such a sad thing to depart with someone who has been there for me,through good and bad times.When she left me,when I was so emo,when i was taking my O levels,when I didn't get into a 3 pure science class.SHE WAS THERE,welcoming me with games like WWE smackdown vs raw,GTA(all of em),final fantasy x,kingdom hearts,covenant hearts, and so much more.TO think that she has to go and retire,puts tears in my eyes.But I have to move on,the playstation 3 will be there for me now.She tempts me with Metal Gear Solid 4,final fantasy 13,vs13,resistance fall of man,lair,assasin's creed and more.I have to move on,the show must go on.

PLAYSTATION 2 I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU :'(

2006-11-12T07:53:00.000-08:00

I hAte StAnDiNg AlOt!!!!!!!!

STAND-IN
Standing without a reason will make you suffer insanity sooner or later,my mind has lost its meaning.I mean I'm standing for at least 4 and 1/2 hours straight,and its an at least.Damn stupid,and some random girls ask for something that they don't even know what it is,no name,no description.S.K. Epic center gets so weak after awhile,its only useful at like level 6 and not even Tiny can be killed.Unless you can get a battle fury or a M.K.B.Go to VIVO before 19 nov,theres this bookstall ship from don't know where,but whatever they announce that they are the oldest bookstall ship!And come visit me at my pathetic christmas deco area.Outside Tangs.

BOREDOM!!!!!AT VIVO CITY!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-11-09T07:33:00.000-08:00

Am I dead now,shallowed eternity under the golden sun.Grace of God must be found again,the abandon and lonely weep their sorrowful remorse.

One day the dreamers died within us When all our answers never came We hid the truth beneath our skin but Our shadows never looked the same A ghost is all that's left Of everything we swore we never would forget We tried to bleed the sickness But we drained our hearts instead We are, we are the dead And when we couldn't stop the bleeding We held our hearts over the flame We couldn't help but call it treason After that we couldn't fill our frames After that our shadows never looked the same A ghost is all that's left Of everything we swore we never would forget We tried to bleed the sickness But we drained our hearts instead We are, we are the dead In summers past we'd challenge fate With higher pitch and perfect aim And standing fast, we'd radiate A light we loved but never named But the answers never came And our shadows never looked the same A ghost is all that's left (we are the ones who lost our faith)Of everything we swore we never would forget (can we be saved?)We tried to bleed the sickness But we drained our hearts instead We are, we are the dead (we are the ones who lost our faith)A ghost of everything we thought but never said (can we be saved?)We tried to bleed the sickness But we drained our hearts instead We are the ones who lost our faith We dug ourselves an early grave We are the dead, can we be saved?

2006-11-09T07:26:00.000-08:00

My canine teeth yearns for blood,the sun burn my skin now.

I feel it welling up inside and Robert Smith lied.Boys do cry and with blood tears in my eyes.I'm an Anne Rice novel come to life.I can't hide the monster anymore.One can only feel desolate for so long.Until one starts to changeInto something the mirror doesn't recognize.I metamorphasize.The darkness has been biding its time.To claim its latest victim.Fresh meat for carnal desires.To become what I became.I viewed the sun for the last time.Will you still hold me when you see what I have done?Will you still kiss me the same when you taste my victim's blood?So crimson and red, I feel it flowing from your lips.My heart is dead and so are you.And it pulses through, the desire to change.The desire to deconstruct all of my past failings.But where to begin because when you live in sin.It's hard to look at saints without them.Reflecting youre jet black auras back on you.And all I have is hope, my inner burn's not fading.I'll wipe the blood from my cheek and get on with my day.And all I have is hope, and all I need is time.To bury in pine under six feet of time.The lies I told me about myself.Claw my way out, pick the splinters from under my fingernails.I won't lose hope, I won't give in.Just live and breathe and try not to die again.

Atreyu-The crimson

2006-11-07T06:03:00.000-08:00

Welcome to my end,all are invited.Became,come and lost.The fire is going to bathe us.

THE CRUSADE:Boots that are not made for standing
Standing here for another hour will make me go sour,my knees will bend,my legs will cloak up.Save me somebody,she takes so long to reply.Can't hold on any longer,my legs are going to be chop off soon.Please,save me. Argh!Everything I do is so boring.Finally final fantasy 12,comes and save my life with an interesting story.Everyday seems like stupid in my life compared to Vann's.I realise that my journey is about to end,and now I stand hoping.Bored to death with myself in the mirror.With a laugh I drop to the floor with my paralysed legs.Watch me fly with the angels,that fell like stars.

The path seems so far.My legs are dead,my soul remains in resistance,for how long,even God don't want to know.

2006-11-02T06:00:00.000-08:00

Crimson skies under the black universe helps the dark understand themselves.With their knowledge their strength grow,becoming,their becoming.

THE BEGINNING:Set free of the shackle chains
Tied to me were the chains of an old life,I wish to forget.Now deep down in a heart,devastated,thrashed and deep in ruins.A beating soul emerges out of the darkness,to bring back a life to the one that lost one.An uprising that my soul needed,the dawn of darker days are coming.God save us all.

Dreams are getting colder this days,but my chains are gone,and I can finally get out of her icy throne.A light given from the heavens,she will fall one day with that one third of the stars.

2006-10-27T10:53:00.000-07:00

The words on this note has an empty meaning,everything is a void.Close the eyes of the suffering children,they don't need to know the dark of this world.

TheTHE BEGINNING: double edged sword
To love someone and hate them so much at the same time,just like a sword that stabs you and your enemy at the same time.Like lights to the flies is the pain she sents me,deliver me from her will someone,please!The cold air around you chokes even germs from life,may god bless their souls.We all must pity the dead you left behind,you icy queen.So the love i have is changing,now those who run will be burn.

Cut,cut,stab,stab,rip,rip.For i am emo.

2006-10-26T11:39:00.000-07:00

Where we were brought weakness to my veins,another night of broken dreams unfolds inside a shell.

Cry alone, I've gone away.No more nights, no more pain.I've gone alone, took all my strength,But I've made the change,I won't see you tonight.Sorrow, sank deep inside my blood,all the ones around me,I cared for and lovedBuilding up, inside of me.A place so dark, so cold, I had to set me free.Don't mourn for me, you're not the one to place the blame.As bottles called my name, I won't see you tonight.Sorrow, sank deep inside my blood.all the ones around me,I cared for and most of all I loved,but I can't see myself that way,please don't forget me or cry while I'm away.Cry alone, I've gone away.No more nights, no more pain,I've gone alone, took all my strength.But I've made the change,I won't see you tonight.So far away, I'm gone. Please don't follow me tonight.And while I'm gone, everything will be alright.No more breath inside.Essence left my heart tonight

Avenged Sevenfold-I won't see you tonight part 1

2006-10-26T11:06:00.000-07:00

For you to know my lost love,for me to let you know i can't forget.

Your hazel green tint eyes watching every move I make.And that feeling of doubt, it's erased.I'll never feel alone again with you by my side.You're the one, and in you I confide. And we have gone through good and bad times.But your unconditional love was always on my mind.You've been there from the start for me.And your loves always been true as can be.I give my heart to you.I give my heart, cause nothing can compare in this world to you.

Avenged Sevenfold-warmness of the heart

2006-10-26T08:22:00.000-07:00

Three gods dressed in gold,fine linen and pearls.Stood on the life of the heartbroken,with just a smile they walk away.Then the god dressed in hooded black came,standing alone he came and offered them a hand.Got them up with a heartful peace.Then he brought them to a place where darkness will leave.The savior of the fallen.Love means nothing here.

THE BEGINNING:Fallency for(end starts here)
Ready.Set.Go.Her shattering coldness deepens the sorrow of a weakened warm heart.Finished on her last words,later,then it came to be never.Cradle on hopes like the poor baby on the breaking treetop,and when it breaks,down will come hope like the baby,cradle and all.Her run carries on away,farther from the broken tree,where i am with a broken back and a bleeding heart.The notebooks she wrote on couldn't kill me off.She is waiting for me,to start running the other way.But no matter what our path will still cross again,millions of miles later.So i get up to run.She starts here.Let us meet again somewhere,no matter how long.

Fallency begins with words,upon the marks of a line.Welcoming the destruction that cries to follow.

2006-10-23T12:34:00.000-07:00

Like the sunset you went,across the sea.To an island I can see,but cannot reach.Love me not,a black rose of pain.

THE BEGINNING:Anthem of the missing
Treason thrashed the lonely soul,defining itself on its shipwreck.Left to recover on white tides.The soul shows its empathy for the heart.Lost and lonely,hiding beneath shattered dreams,a heart's reside.For love was broken,torned and tattered,toss aside onto edgy cliffs."My dreams were with you,my heart remains there.My love is still with you,you turn it away".A treason that someday may fade away.Say goodbye to you will never be the same.THEN.NOW.EVER.

So cold the remains is all that left,under the stars of the hopeful.Where your lost heart lingers,waiting for a revive.

2006-10-23T10:54:00.000-07:00

in the end,started the beginning.a spiral of resistance,the fall of humanity is coming .

THE BEGINNING:Prologue of Eternity
A cold winters night,fading the warmth of the heart.I remain back as they move on.Missing on seized opportunity.Damn fragrant of being alone,forced abandonment.A stupid society of paper acknowledgement and standings."So what if I didn't make it through,i deserve a second chance.I never fell this way before,don't underestimate anyone".Fallen gaze onto the souls of the judges,and their insidious plans.Time is insecure,my time is on tenterhooks.

let Eternity be,for she wants herself to come to an end someday.